Such significant experiences unfolded during my therapy sessions today. From grappling with suicidal thoughts to battling an extreme eating disorder, and even witnessing inaction in reporting child abuse, the gravity of these situations weighs heavily on my mind even during my off hours.
As I reflect on the precious 55 minutes we shared, thoughts race through my mind and linger. Am I doing enough? Did I make the right call? Do my clients trust me?
I must reach out to the dietician of a client, seeking insights into the severity of her eating disorder. I know it’s serious, but understanding its extent will guide my approach. Should I simply lend an empathetic ear, or should I adopt a more targeted approach by setting achievable goals?
While I contemplate, a strong gust of wind whisps through the open window, gently caressing my bare feet. The sensation is tranquil. In the background, a distant train horn bellows, joined by a handful of birds bidding farewell to the day.
Today, my support team—consisting of my trusted friend who happens to be a therapist, my husband, and my best friend—truly excelled. Their guidance on how to handle the individual who hesitates to report child abuse was invaluable. In my last conversation with them, I firmly stated, “If you do not report by tomorrow at noon, I will be compelled to provide the authorities with your name.” It’s their unwavering support and sound advice have transformed my sense of helplessness into empowerment. I am immensely grateful.
Ah, sleep, how I adore it. Besides losing myself in a few pages of “Dracula” in Spanish, I’m looking forward to wriggling my body into new bedsheets. There’s this real dreamy sensation I feel after turning off my device and actively tuning to sleep. Try as I may to think of fun, interesting, and off the wall things (none of which I can remember later) it’s only for a time before I wake and there’s enough time do it all over again, or I have to wake up. Waking up isn’t bad, per se. It’s just that sleep – MUAH – oh, how I love it!
Love, Jaclynn
Going On 40 