It’s been quite a whirlwind of a day. I’ve made the decision to charge a higher rate for couples counseling, and it’s heartening to see people returning. While I can’t say I’m surprised, I’m taking this as a milestone and a testament to my growing comfort and confidence in my practice.
As for my outfit today, I’m rocking cotton overalls with straps tied at the top of my shoulders in a warm, fall leaf color – not the bright yellow, but the deep orange-brown rusty shade. I must admit, it makes me feel like I’m about to head into a pumpkin patch. These overalls come complete with extra-large pockets, big enough to hold a plethora of corn on the cobs if the need arises, or perhaps even two of me if someone needed to hide in the waist and leg areas.
This unique fashion choice was inspired by an internet find that I couldn’t help but find cute. When I mentioned it to a younger client who complimented me on the look, they responded, “It does go with your vibe.”
My vibe? I have a vibe? Well, then, heck yeah! I have a vibe!
I’m truly thriving in my work. It doesn’t feel like the typical grind – it’s not hard, stressful, or draining. Instead, it’s satisfying, enjoyable, and downright fun.
During a session with a younger client, they began with a straight face, heavy eyelids, and a slight quiver of the lip, admitting, “I’ve been having suicidal thoughts.” While this revelation is not uncommon in my line of work, I asked how they were feeling about it. Their response was, “Sad, but neutral. It just is.” So, in a neutral tone, I mirrored back, “Okay, then.” Surprisingly, without any shock or awe from me, they turned and asked, “Can I sing you a song?”
I settled onto the floor, with my legs kicked up on my chair, and simply listened. I listened to the gentle, cloud-soft quality of their voice, its strength in line, and its power, which surpassed that of the song’s original artist. Though I didn’t show it, a warm tear welled up in my eye, and I couldn’t help but smile. I was fully present, relishing the moment, and even dancing my foot in the air in response to the music.
In the end, we all just want to be heard, seen, and felt – for every part of us. We yearn for acceptance and understanding. That’s something I’m working on offering both to myself and to others, and I have to say, I’m getting pretty good at it.
I’m growing, and days like today are a big, red smiley face on the report card of my personal and professional journey.
Thanks for stopping by. Love, Jaclnn
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