Have you ever told yourself you were done for the day—done eating, done scrolling, done with anything—and then went back on it? That was me today. I had committed to finishing my eating window, proud of the progress I’ve made with intermittent fasting, only to find myself eating a smoothie and fish sticks hours later.
And then came the cherry Coke.
It wasn’t just about the calories or the sugar. It was the feeling of breaking a promise to myself. I’ve talked a lot about the relationship I want to have with myself—one rooted in fairness, self-trust, and a balance between indulgence and discipline. But today, I didn’t keep that balance. I didn’t keep my word.
At that moment, I told myself I was owed that treat. That’s the part that concerns me most—the feeling of entitlement, like I deserve to sabotage my progress because I’ve worked hard.
But here’s the thing: This journey isn’t just about numbers on a scale or following a plan. It’s about building trust with myself. It’s about proving, through small, consistent actions, that I can rely on myself. Today was a stumble, yes, but it’s also a reminder of what I value.
I don’t want to betray the discipline I’m cultivating, and I won’t. Progress isn’t undone in a single choice; it’s lost when we let one slip spiral into more.
So I’m taking a pause. No judgment, no shame—just a quiet recommitment to the path I’ve chosen. Because this journey isn’t about perfection. It’s about being fair to myself, forgiving the missteps, and continuing to move forward.
Love, Jaclynn
Going On 40 