Running has become an obsession. I love it. Not every single second, mind you, but the moments just after a strenuous hill or a mentally low spot, the clouds part.
I never know if or when I’ll break through, when the concrete suffering bubble will pop, but I’m here to say it does. And when it does, it’s as if angels from the outfield lift me gently by my armpits, and I hover, all twinkle-toed, an inch off the ground.
It’s runner’s high–adjacent. I’m not quite at rainbows-and-kittens euphoria level yet, so let’s say I’m visiting the stepsister of that universe. It’s nice. But not that nice.
I ran a personal best 5K today. Even starting at a moderate pace, knowing full well I needed to throttle my energy so I could run the whole thing. There’s a fear in me that I won’t—that it’s too much. But as I keep training, that fear is loosening. I’m tapping into something steadier—resiliency, maybe even a little power.
Instead of thoughts about stopping, I say, “How about we just make it to that sign?” And because it’s more mental than physical, my body keeps going. Past the sign, to the next thing, and before I know it, I’m out of that mental hula hoop.
So yeah—today felt like a culmination of all those hard days. And I’m basking in it.
Besides the lingering uncertainty about whether my MDSave voucher will actually work for the neck ultrasound, that’s all I’ve got to share today. I’m hopeful that customer service will get back to me tomorrow after troubleshooting the issue that prevented the clinic from processing it.
If this works, it’ll be a game-changer. I’ll shout it from the rooftops—because having access to more affordable medical options matters. A lot.
Send a little prayer or good vibes my way that it does. Not just for me, but for what it could mean for others, too.
Love you,
Jaclynn
Going On 40 