Fearlessly Facing the Past

Fear and defensiveness bubble up, leaving me like a treed raccoon, with countless bloodhounds clawing at the bark below. Revisiting mindsets that led me into an unhealthy and chaotic state often trigger those same feelings; my thoughts race, my heart beats faster, and a sense of being under threat rises. Yet, despite being triggered, IContinue reading “Fearlessly Facing the Past”

Purging, Planning and Paving

I don’t miss the material stuff. Any of it. As I take in the simplicity of the space around me—the blue, puffy-topped ottoman and the long, narrow dark oak table with two chairs neatly tucked against its bare surface—my mind drifts to the version of me from a few months ago. The cross-country move broughtContinue reading “Purging, Planning and Paving”

Motorcycle Messenger

After watching a video on Beducated—a website offering a wide range of educational content about relationships and intimacy—Dave and I started discussing our shared visions and goals for our family. We brainstormed ideas, like incorporating more physical activity into our routine, such as walking or biking to places like the library or hardware store insteadContinue reading “Motorcycle Messenger”

Being a Better Human – Day 2

To be better humans, we first need to show up for ourselves. The first episode of the How to Be a Better Human podcast focuses on emotional health—specifically loneliness and vulnerability—and it hits close to home. I know firsthand how shame and self-blame have kept me stuck in unhealthy emotional states. One insight from theContinue reading “Being a Better Human – Day 2”

The “Be a Better Human” Challenge

I’ve been stuck—lost in the depths of hopelessness. Friend’s Facebook posts, news articles, and even my own thoughts have felt like booby traps, keeping me despairing and weighed down. My only escape hatch has been imagining a fantastical move to Portugal, Finland, or some other dramatic dismantling of who I am, who others are, orContinue reading “The “Be a Better Human” Challenge”