The Relief of No

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I was unaware of the ripple effect a native plant sale advertisement would have.

I’d learned of a two-day sale on a local Facebook group: two-for-one plants and an additional 30% off due to overstock. As the day has gone on, and after swirling around the idea like a ballet pirouette, I have a hypothesis.

Doesn’t the early bird get the worm?

Just like an estate sale, what’s for sale is what’s for sale. There isn’t a stocking shelf in the back. I have to get there, right? At opening. Like the old Black Fridays, back when trampling was in style.

I’ve sat in the debriefing room long enough to make a decision.

I’m not going.

Final decision.

And that feels majorly relieving.

I’m on a spending-less sabbatical. It started with not buying a new phone and sitting with the sobering aftereffects. What do I really need, and why? took center stage.

Later, while sitting on the front porch, cha-chinging in the benefits of the beauty and peace bombarding me from every angle, I concluded:

“I don’t need anything.”

I don’t need a camera to take pictures of things. Been there, done that.

What I needed recently was glasses—readers, specifically. My vision change was most noticeable when reading to Evelyn before bed or when scrolling on my phone at night. My eyes get tired, I think. Or perhaps I do more small-font activities at that time.

I’m glad I’m no longer resistant to the need for these things. Seeing the words larger and more clearly, as if looking at them under a microscope, is pretty cool.

Oh, and I almost forgot about the soon-to-be-made ping pong table purchase this Friday.

Although we’ve only played a handful of times, Dave and I are equally competitive and equally skilled. The back porch is the planned location, which reminds me—I really do need to measure and make sure it’ll fit.

Alright, I’m outta here.

I hope you had a lovely day.

Love,
Jaclynn

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Ama Ndlovu explores the connections of culture, ecology, and imagination.

Her work combines ancestral knowledge with visions of the planetary future, examining how Black perspectives can transform how we see our world and what lies ahead.

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