“Self-discovery through reading is often revelatory and freeing, but not always pleasant. It makes us look within, and that is sometimes painful.” This is from “The Power of Habit,” the book I started reading yesterday.
Being human is complicated.
I can interpret the events in my life through totally different lenses; sometimes, I see myself as a victim, and others times, I see myself as hero.
It’s hard to know which is the real interpretation, is it not?
Uh oh, a song’s overcome me.
“I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
And I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way.”
But honestly, I can be a bad guy, doing my darnedest to tear other people down. And I can also be the good guy building and bolstering people up.
I may not like that I do this, but it’s the way it is. The thing I try to do is not to act on any of my negative impulses.
I wish I had all this figured out, and that my self-discovery days were over.
No I don’t! Because then I’d stop growing and evolving into the cooler, badder ass version of myself.
In other news, the Seattle Kraken lost tonight. Dave’s a big fan, that’s my husband.
A friend of mine is an Ice Technician for the Kraken and Dave got a warm-up puck and other swag items from him last night. Don’t tell him I told you this but he was cutely excited.
Also, my friend told us he’s not driving the Zamboni yet. Since it’s a $200,000 piece of machinery, and he’s not interested in making ESPN news for a mishap, he’s all about letting the more experienced workers drive it.
Anyway, that’s about it. It was a good day. A cold day, but a good day.
I hope tomorrow’s warmer; I need to get in the garden and plant some seeds.
Anyway, I hope your weekend is going well. Talk to you tomorrow.
Love,
Jaclynn
Going On 40 