What’s the emotion you least like experiencing and why?
Mine has always been guilt. I think it’s because guilt usually comes wrapped with fear and anxiety like bacon and cream cheese do in a jalapeno popper.
Too much guilt is like weeds in a garden. A few are fine, but the more you have, the more the soil gets stripped of its nutrients and the less space there is for the desired vegetation.
I recall stockpiling guilt and hiding it away in shadowy places. Often I’d lie to myself, saying, This is just the way life is.
And I did that for a long time.
Maybe it was therapy. Perhaps it was getting older or the passage of time, but my relationship with guilt has changed; slow and steady, similar to how the dead of winter births into spring.
Having a healthier relationship with guilt today means my relationship with myself and others can improve, as I no longer am responsible for more than my share.
And in taking a fair amount of accountability I’ve been able to regain trust in myself.
This leads me to the newest addition to my client load, a novice therapist. They’re overwhelmed and struggling, and are unsure if they will make it in the counseling field.
I remember those early days and although I am glad they are over I look forward to sharing what’s helped and worked for me. I’m hoping the lessons I’ve gained will benefit them.
Anyway, what a busy day it was!
We had two sets of grandparents over. Went to town for the Daffodil Parade. Finished a colorful macaroon puzzle. Ate my famous homemade salsa, guacamole, and enchiladas. And watched the animated Robin Hood on the projector. And now, I’m ready for bed.
I hope your weekend is going swimmingly. Love, Jaclynn
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