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Hip, No Ties

The way a tear reflects a ray of sun. The sway of us when we kiss in the kitchen. I’m not a believer in much of anything, but the beauty that exists between you and me. The rational mind is strong, but the creative mind is powerful. I hold a marble in my hand andContinue reading “Hip, No Ties”

Side Eye

How many recycled thoughts versus novel thoughts do I have in a day? I can’t know the answer, but I hope it leans toward the creative and one-of-a-kind side. Do you know what never gets old? The stars in the sky. Over the bright light of my laptop screen, Monster’s University, an animation, is playingContinue reading “Side Eye”

Hold Me Close

Do you ever learn something about yourself, something not so positive, and don’t quite know how to feel about it? Since I desire to work with couples, I am taking a seminar during my downtime on emotionally-focused therapy. Initially, I felt jazzed about the content, learning ways to reframe problems between couples and how toContinue reading “Hold Me Close”

Keep Your Head Up

While reading “Bumpy the Car” to my two and half-year-old daughter, Evelyn, I noticed the difference in her legs’ length. I’m used to seeing it by now in the skip-like nature of her run and the way her pant legs bunch. “This is not clubfoot.” The misdiagnosis by the midwife is a common one, andContinue reading “Keep Your Head Up”

A Beautiful Disaster

I’m pulling out memories like polaroid shots, then tossing them over my shoulder. Where is my life’s worth? There’s a turtle that’d-rather-stay-in-its-shell part of me tonight that wants nothing more than to kick rocks all by itself. I hope you don’t take this personally, but I’d rather be alone. I mean, if you like andContinue reading “A Beautiful Disaster”

A Grind

Being in my mind can be like walking around in a minefield, and it’s the what’s wrong with me thought that sets off the mine, otherwise known as a self-hating domino effect. And, as you might imagine, what follows is a flash-flood of unsafe emotions (not unlike the time I drove in a blizzard throughContinue reading “A Grind”

Running Shmunning

I’m afraid my life is on a downhill slide; like, all the best times of my life are in the past. What a scary thought that is, right? But still, I can’t help to think – what if it’s true? I suppose my first thought is that I can’t know if it’s true. Mainly becauseContinue reading “Running Shmunning”

Living After Loss

Death is an interesting animal. Unexpected is the relief and hopefulness that arrives sometime after, like a dear old friend knocking at the door. The tendency might be to feel guilty; how is it ok to feel like a kid waiting to get into Disneyland at a time like that? At the time of myContinue reading “Living After Loss”